Busy weekend!!! ( and a bad day !! :( )

Well, to begin, Friday (tomorrow) I'm going to a restaurant to celebrate my dad his birthday :D And Saturday is going to be busy with the Almere Talent Awards and I'm going to meet Jörgen Raymann!!

I'm glad that I only have homework for History! Because I have to do something special on Sunday, but I can't tell you what I'm going to do :P

You probably ask yourself why I have a bad day, right?! Yeah, don't know if you do, but okay...

Yesterday I got kicked on my leg, because I jokingly said that I wanted to break a leg so I wouldn't participate gym class, but yeah, the person took it too serious. I think it wasn't really something you can do to someone, because I now have bruises on both legs, because that person kicked me several times.I had sprained my ankle that morning, so I couldn't participate gym of that too :(

I just came up for myself, but the person was acting all like a psycho.. Yeah, if my tutor's always saying that I  have to solve everything on my own, this happens of course!! I already had to take care of everything myself for like a full year! I'm so done with that!

I was always acting too nice to people who didn't even deserve it, but I'm done with that! No more nicey nice to people who aren't even nice to me!!

I'm just afraid that the cyber bullying happens again, because that happened last year, when someone blamed me for stealing money and they bullied me so bad, that I cried..

So, people reading this,
please stop judging me before you know me,
thank you.

My day in a nutshell

Today, I'm feeling exhausted of all the homework. At first, I started to learn Geography, but I couldn't get Gelderland in my head and I always forget the right order of the places in Noord-Holland! After I ate dinner, I started to read my notes of History, but that didn't really worked well, because I made Maths before that..

Enough about that...

I've dreamed a very bad dream today :( It was about bullying and I woke up crying. It was like 5:30 in the morning! Then I overslept, but my dad said he could bring me, so I wouldn't be late.. Well, I WAS late, because the A6 was in a traffic jam... Couldn't my day begin worser than this?!?!

Finally after some boring lessons of Tutor hour, French and German, I got to eat a slice of pie, because my crush celebrated his  birthday! It was delicious :)

After the pie, I walked to Math, taking the test I missed when I was sick. I hope my note for that isn't bad (I am reeeeally bad at maths!!)

 I finished the test, got to the class and then got distracted about thoughts of someone. I started listening to rock music (yeah, I listen Nickelback, Three Days Grace and Simple Plan) and I drifted away in my thoughts. Rock music makes me relax, you know! It also makes me work harder (except when I'm deep in my thoughts!!).

That's how my day went, it went well, actually, according to my lunch break with my friends :)
That's all folks <3

What's on my mind?

When I grow up, I want to be a singer/songwriter. I want to be known by artists and work together with them and be friends. I hope I will ever get to record a song with Taylor Swift, my idol. If I will be famous when I'm older, I wanna be happy and loved by everyone, well, maybe some haters, but haters makes me strong. This is not my only dream, because...

I'd like to be a good mother and a good wife of a loving husband. Talking about love, my other dream is finding a true love and be happy together! This sounds all sappy, but this is just me, you know...

My title said: "what's on my mind?" so I'll tell you!!

When I really think about stuff, is when I take a stroll with my dog in the forest. It can be about hate, love or disappointment. But sometimes I am thinking about things in class and that always makes me drift away, but that's not really good, isn't it? Well, I can't help myself with that, because I get distracted really fast, you know...

If thinking about things that are hurting me so bad, I grab my pen and get a piece of paper and write my thoughts on it. That's the only way to make me a little calm. Sometimes it gets so horrible, I even stay up for a whole night and get so tired the next day, not feeling comfortable at all.

If I am thinking about good things, it's probably about love! Love makes me happy!

If it's about disappointment, it's mostly about friendships, because there are some people that are in my way, but they'll never disappear out of my memories. Sometimes there were some people that were not there for me, when I was dying from inside, and that hurts me so bad.

I'm glad that I have friends that aren't like them and are always there to make me happy :D. They accept me who I am and they trust  me completely.