Christmas, here I come!

So, yeah, tomorrow it's gonna be Christmas eve! I hope my jaw doesn't hurt then... Yesterday I went shopping (well not really shopping) with my mom and we bought some things.

First we were watching my dad perform with CoZy, his band. Well, not the whole band was performing at that moment, but okay... He was doing it for Serious Request. I guess you know about that!

Then we've got to the coolcat to get a wintercoat, but it wasn't a good succes.... :(

Anyway, I went shopping with my mom and my brother too. My brother was very annoying, as usual actually. That's what little sisters are for right? lol. But yeah, I chose some presents and stuff. I chose for boots with (finally!) heels. Yep, I never walked on heels (except that fairytale thing with the high heels then).

 After that, we've got to the claire's and we bought donut earbuds and pink nerdy glasses!! (the glasses are in the picture by the way...)

So, yeah. That's what I actually did!

Tomorrow I'm going to open the presents under my mom's tree, I guess... And then Tuesday, we're going to open presents at my grandmom and grandad's (they are from my mother's side). After that, we're going to my dad's and I'm going to open a present of my uncle Bart!

I don't know when I'm opening the presents of my dad, (step)grandad and my stepmom... Probably Wednesday, I guess? Or Tuesday....

Anyway, that's what I'm gonna do this vacation ^_^

Updating my life :D

So.. My last blog was about not being nice to people who don't deserve it, but I'm only bringing myself down when I'm just acting like such a bitch. I'm not so worried about the bullying anymore and I am happier than ever before.

Yesterday I met some Dutch celebrities like Brownie Dutch and Charly Luske. Too bad I didn't won the finals of the Almere Talent Awards....

But yeah, I think it's more important to focus on school and this was just the beginning. I wasn't really thinking about winning the competition, I saw it as a great begin of my dream. I'm just twelve years old and I have so much to learn...

But we were talking about acting like a bitch, right?...

I don't want to change and I wasn't myself this year, so I'm going to be myself again from now on and hope for a good 2013.

The truth is that I'm not a quiet, depressive and emotionless girl. I'm a happy, joyful and shy girl, but nobody, except my closest friends know that. Some friends even forgot that...

I'm going to let go the bad things, but still I am trapped in the past. But I'm glad I have somebody by my side. He accepts me as who I am, he understands me and he listens to me.. But I also do the same to him and he knows I also care about him.

Yep, he's my crush for like three months already now at this moment.

Busy weekend!!! ( and a bad day !! :( )

Well, to begin, Friday (tomorrow) I'm going to a restaurant to celebrate my dad his birthday :D And Saturday is going to be busy with the Almere Talent Awards and I'm going to meet Jörgen Raymann!!

I'm glad that I only have homework for History! Because I have to do something special on Sunday, but I can't tell you what I'm going to do :P

You probably ask yourself why I have a bad day, right?! Yeah, don't know if you do, but okay...

Yesterday I got kicked on my leg, because I jokingly said that I wanted to break a leg so I wouldn't participate gym class, but yeah, the person took it too serious. I think it wasn't really something you can do to someone, because I now have bruises on both legs, because that person kicked me several times.I had sprained my ankle that morning, so I couldn't participate gym of that too :(

I just came up for myself, but the person was acting all like a psycho.. Yeah, if my tutor's always saying that I  have to solve everything on my own, this happens of course!! I already had to take care of everything myself for like a full year! I'm so done with that!

I was always acting too nice to people who didn't even deserve it, but I'm done with that! No more nicey nice to people who aren't even nice to me!!

I'm just afraid that the cyber bullying happens again, because that happened last year, when someone blamed me for stealing money and they bullied me so bad, that I cried..

So, people reading this,
please stop judging me before you know me,
thank you.

My day in a nutshell

Today, I'm feeling exhausted of all the homework. At first, I started to learn Geography, but I couldn't get Gelderland in my head and I always forget the right order of the places in Noord-Holland! After I ate dinner, I started to read my notes of History, but that didn't really worked well, because I made Maths before that..

Enough about that...

I've dreamed a very bad dream today :( It was about bullying and I woke up crying. It was like 5:30 in the morning! Then I overslept, but my dad said he could bring me, so I wouldn't be late.. Well, I WAS late, because the A6 was in a traffic jam... Couldn't my day begin worser than this?!?!

Finally after some boring lessons of Tutor hour, French and German, I got to eat a slice of pie, because my crush celebrated his  birthday! It was delicious :)

After the pie, I walked to Math, taking the test I missed when I was sick. I hope my note for that isn't bad (I am reeeeally bad at maths!!)

 I finished the test, got to the class and then got distracted about thoughts of someone. I started listening to rock music (yeah, I listen Nickelback, Three Days Grace and Simple Plan) and I drifted away in my thoughts. Rock music makes me relax, you know! It also makes me work harder (except when I'm deep in my thoughts!!).

That's how my day went, it went well, actually, according to my lunch break with my friends :)
That's all folks <3

What's on my mind?

When I grow up, I want to be a singer/songwriter. I want to be known by artists and work together with them and be friends. I hope I will ever get to record a song with Taylor Swift, my idol. If I will be famous when I'm older, I wanna be happy and loved by everyone, well, maybe some haters, but haters makes me strong. This is not my only dream, because...

I'd like to be a good mother and a good wife of a loving husband. Talking about love, my other dream is finding a true love and be happy together! This sounds all sappy, but this is just me, you know...

My title said: "what's on my mind?" so I'll tell you!!

When I really think about stuff, is when I take a stroll with my dog in the forest. It can be about hate, love or disappointment. But sometimes I am thinking about things in class and that always makes me drift away, but that's not really good, isn't it? Well, I can't help myself with that, because I get distracted really fast, you know...

If thinking about things that are hurting me so bad, I grab my pen and get a piece of paper and write my thoughts on it. That's the only way to make me a little calm. Sometimes it gets so horrible, I even stay up for a whole night and get so tired the next day, not feeling comfortable at all.

If I am thinking about good things, it's probably about love! Love makes me happy!

If it's about disappointment, it's mostly about friendships, because there are some people that are in my way, but they'll never disappear out of my memories. Sometimes there were some people that were not there for me, when I was dying from inside, and that hurts me so bad.

I'm glad that I have friends that aren't like them and are always there to make me happy :D. They accept me who I am and they trust  me completely.

HEY! :D

Hi, this blog is about me, Sidney Elia.

Well, to start, I am Sidney and I am twelve years old, turning thirteen in a half year. That means it's just  twelve and a half years ago that I was born. My birth place? It's Almere, where I still live. I was born in the hospital, all healthy!

I was two years or so when my parents got into a divorce. I'm living with my dad and sleep at my mother's once in the two weeks.

We have a fight with our family for a couple of months already... I had to fight for my smile and still need to. Just a little thing goes wrong and it turns in a frown. I'm a victim of bullying and had to go through hard times. Sadly, the bullying never stopped...

But I am strong enough to go through that, but too tired to show it. Waking up six o'clock every day is exhausting. I overslept several times these weeks and I'm very tired when school ends, which means I'm a little bit grumpy or sometimes depressed.

I'm having trouble with trusting people, because I'm too naive. I trusted everyone in the past, but since I'm aware of cyber bullying, I always "test" people. What I mean with "testing" is when someone doesn't act like a friend, he or she doesn't deserve to be a friend. That doesn't mean I always ignore everyone!

Sincerely,
Sidney.

Good day!! :D

Today's Tuesday. Not a special day, if you expected it. Wednesday has been my favourite day since Elemantary school! On Wednesday, things always happen right, not wrong. I actually HATE Tuesday! No offense, but I always get sick or wake up the time I already had to leave... So, that isn't really good, right?

Monday is also a bad day... I always get really tired, because I can't sleep on a Sunday. On Sundays, I always think about what happened the whole week. Sometimes i't's about a fight with someone, or about people bullying me. I sometimes end up crying, but that doesn't happen really often anymore. I'm getting stronger and stronger...

The favourite subject was Acting Class and of course, English. My favourite subjects are all on Thursday, Biology and English. Too bad my third favourite subject, Drawing lessons are not anymore :(. She was so nice, but now we have something else than that.

Well, today is just a normal ol' schoolday, if you ask me. Nothing special happened, only saw my crush... :P

Who it is?... You probably don't know him and I won't even tell you if you asked. That's privacy!!

Maths was boring, so I decided to draw a butterfly, flower and some other things... Well, I also got to spend time with my friends from another class. I don't really have friends in my class, but I mean best friends. They are all in the class I went....

Well,
That's my blog!

I thank y'all for reading. 

Sidney.