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Hello!

My blog is completely random, but hey, who cares?

Okay, plans for may. Uh, I don't have any. And why? Because I have to work on school and blah blah blah. So for three months, there are no friends coming over and when I don't have homework, I have to do boring things like reading! Sometimes I just can't take it anymore! They think it's because of my friends! I was just lazy and that was the problem.

I'm honest! So yeah.

I wish I had more to tell, but the only thing I can tell is that I have to make homework and stay home. It's all my fault.. If I did my best this year, this problem wasn't in my way. But this isn't solving anything at all!

I feel lonely, I miss my friends, and most importantly, I can't have fun. I didn't even met with my friends that much. I didn't even met some friends yet, they are all skype friends who live near my place.

I'm so frustrated, because I have to miss everything. I know that life isn't only about having fun, but it also isn't only about school.

I feel so sad.

This isn't fun for me, this isn't fun for anyone.

"It's the best for you." No, it isn't! I just made friends, and now you won't allow me to get to know them more? Now you just leave me here in my room, all alone, while at school it's the same? Just studying, no fun.

I feel caged inside this house. I can't meet friends, I can't make new friends, I disappoint my friends...

I feel like I've lost them a little.

Yay!

Screw depression, i'm stronger! Don't cry about the past, it won't change when you do! Don't cry about things you won't be able to fix at the moment, and most important, don't cry on your own... They were right, everything's gonna be alright!


I only had to believe in it! I now have a best friend who cares about me and loves me (as a friend of course) His support keeps me holding on to the good memories. I also love him in the same way! We have much in common and I like that! He hates Nickelback and Pokémon though.

But yeah, who cares? He can be who he is, I don't even care when he hates Taylor Swift, but he doesn't, haha! We are both random  and we like to make videos.

I don't know if I will ever like him someday, but life can be full of surprises, right? We both listen to all kinds of music. It's like I just found a twin brother. Because of him, I'm going to do my best to be happy, and luckily, he always makes me smile! He has never been mad at me and I am glad he never was. He accepts my past and he understands me too, even though he does not always know what i have felt! But yeah, I have felt really broken at first, but he gets the pieces of my heart back together.

 Thanks for being there for me, Antonio, you're a good friend!